Getting through the day, one cup at a time.


Have you ever been so shocked and happy about something that you just plain forget English and start driveling all over the house. That happened to me, just under an hour ago.

I had just put the kids down and sat down at my computer to prepare myself for another night of “estudio muchas Espanol” for school when I decided to check my email (boring blather), and then clicked on my bookmark for my OSAP application. OSAP, for those who don’t know, is the student financial assistance program here in Ontario. In other words, it’s where the money comes from these days. I sighed as I clicked on through and distinctly remember thinking (or saying out loud…shhhh) “Why do I do this to myself? Torture myself like this.”

Why would I say something so negative? Well, because OSAP and I ran into a little hiccup recently. Due to my full-time status, but my only 60% course load, my upcoming second calendar year is still only considered my first academic year by my school. OSAP saw YEAR ONE on a piece of paper, assumed I had failed at my first year, and was all “we ain’t gonna pay you if you’s a stoopid fail head. Wassup wid dis year one bs? You best be explainin’, son”.

I had to write a very detailed letter explaining that although my paperwork said year one, it was only because I am taking 60% of my course load each year, which means my courses for my second calendar year are still considered “first year courses”. I then snail mailed it to OSAP, and proceeded to wait impatiently. Now, the post around here is awesome. The speed at which OSAP processes the paperwork that they receive is much, much slower than my anxiety allows.

So, “Why do I do this to myself? Torture myself like this.”

And then the request for this letter was gone.

And my funding has been approved.


jump for joy

This is fabulous news because we recently found out that we’re expecting our third. Surprise!


Hey, Look Who’s Awesome

It’s Melanie from motherofnine9 who decided to tell me that I was awesome.


Which is amazing really, because instead of “awesome” I’ve been “absent”.


I’ll take it though. Who doesn’t like a virtual high-five?

BecauseURFantabulous      AwesomeBlossom













May Update

Hello Everyone! And anyone who is still reading this…..

It is May! Halfway through May, actually. I have been gone for a long time, and I will continue to be gone because HOLY CRUD I’m busy!

My first semester is finished! I had 2 midterms and 3 final exams, along with countless essays, but I have succeeded in passing (and beyond) everything! I’ve started my second semester already, and am already a little bit behind (yay, progress!) so I’ll have to keep this brief.

I don’t even know the last time that I posted, but Ally and I went to the dentist back in April for a check up, and she has super awesome teeth! I, on the other hand, have subpar teeth and have already had a cavity filled ($115) and have an appointment that is up and coming for another two cavities to be filled in one go ($230). Yay for poor hygeine! Seriously, kids, brush AND floss. God, I suck at flossing. Why would I include the cost for these fillings? Why, because I am SUPER without benefits, and this is the actual cost out of pocket for me because I was brushing my back teeth poorly. I suppose.

I have received financial aid for going to school and such, and therefore have budgeted for the entire year. WITHOUT extraordinary expenses, I will have $66.24 left in January of 2014. *crosses fingers for no extraordinary expenses*

Edie (our dog) has just recently been to the vet to have some bloodwork done ($45) that will okay her for heartworm, tick, and flea medication ($190) for this summer, that the vet’s office has been kind enough to call me and let me know that I can come pick up and pay for it at my earliest convenience.

In better (although not cheaper $$$) news, both girls are starting soccer soon (which involves the purchasing of bus tickets for the days that Phil takes the car to work with him), we are planning the kids’ birthday parties for this summer, planning on attending the annual fair that we always go to, and have reservations for a campsite for our family camping trip this summer!

I found out recently that my common-step-sister-in-law is newly pregnant. Yay! Also, *jealous*. True story.

Immediately, Ally is at school, Kira is napping, and I am making flour tortillas so that we can have tacos for dinner. Seriously. If you want to try them, here’s the recipe that I found on the interwebs:

Other than my wrist hurting from using the rolling pin so much, they seem super tasty and easily roll-able. Wooooo!

I DO still think of you guys!

With love,



P.S. What happened to the Dashboard? Everything has changed!


Today is Sunday

And instead of relaxing I have spent all morning, noon, and nap (until 2pm) doing schoolwork. Writing, editing, rewriting, posting and submitting a rhetorical analysis and an essay.

I haven’t done this alone, mind you. Phil has been watching Kira all morning, and Phil and Aunt Jodi have been editing for me (THANKS GUYS!) but I am wiped! My brain begins to melt at a certain point, I am telling you.

I’ve also realized that I write the way that I speak, which is fine for let’s say…blogging, but not so much for formal essay writing. Woooooo…..

I had my first two midterms last week. My first midterm, which was the first one I had written in over seven years, was absolutely terrible. Think of any variety of ways to describe horribly awful, failure, and death, and that would sum up my midterm experience. As far as I can figure, I was so focused on not being nervous that I decided to spend all of my energy writing neatly. This “focus” (or terrible misuse of energy) led me to believe that I had to write all of my short answer and three essays in rough form before printing them *legibly* on the exam paper.

Did I mention that midterms and exams have time limits? Because they do. And writing 5 paragraphs and 3 essays TWICE is not something that the exam creators allot you time for. Needless to say, I ran out of time. I physically could not create and rewrite the amount of material in the allotted time. I did not manage to complete my midterm. In.Com.Plete.

The feeling that tightened over my chest and infused itself into my blood stream when I realized that I had screwed myself is nearly indescribable. Sheer horror, panic, hopelessness, and self-hatred all boiling together like a stew of misery and failure, rose to the surface and caused me to shake violently and blink away tears.

I wrote as fast as my little hands could manage and only succeeded in copying down 4 of the 5 paragraphs and 2 of the 3 essays. I begged the invigilator to include my last page of rough notes in my package for my second essay because I had not finished copying down my concluding paragraph. I held myself together most of the way for the ride home, and when I finally put the car in park and turned off the ignition I sat in the driver’s seat and bawled like I have never bawled before.

Stupid. Stupid stupid stupid, was all I could feel, say, or think. What was the purpose of doing schooling if I was just going to suck so hard at it? Nothing. No purpose. Stupid.

Four days later I wrote my second midterm. I approached this midterm (while slightly deflated) with the idea that under no circumstances would I attempt to write ‘rough copies’, that I would merely create a thought bubble and then write the essay as it flowed out of my fingers and into my pencil.

I finished the entire essay with one hour to spare.


I nearly floated out of the exam room, and I grinned like an idiot alllllll the way home.

I feel so much better now, I have my confidence back. But WHAT a ‘learning experience’. What a horrible, terrible, no good, very bad, awful day. I hope to never repeat a day like that.

Missing you guys!


2012 in Review

The stats helper monkeys prepared a 2012 annual report for this blog.

Here’s an excerpt:

600 people reached the top of Mt. Everest in 2012. This blog got about 9,800 views in 2012. If every person who reached the top of Mt. Everest viewed this blog, it would have taken 16 years to get that many views.

Click here to see the complete report.


I am so far behind in everything. School is vastly overwhelming and I’m sick again. Just in time for my first midterm in seven years. Woooo.

I miss you guys,




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